Monday, August 25, 2008

It's just one of those days

Well I don't normally do posts like this, but for some reason I am really missing my family and friends in Utah.  I don't cry very often (for a girl, maybe because my whole family consists of all boys and they just don't understand crying)  I think it is all hitting me with the start of the holidays around the corner (and all my visitors have come and gone) and we won't be able to be with them for the second year in a row.   I love California, but it is really hard not having family around.  Everything is so expensive here and and I really hate having 3,000,000,056,2oo,ooo people living on my block with me, I feel like they can hear every conversation, every fight I have with my children and my children screaming.  I am really sick of the little yappy dogs I hear almost all day long.  I am sorry for this post I normally think it is silly when I see someone venting on their blog but I think Jackson thinks I am crazy for crying so I needed to tell someone and what better place than the 3,000,000,056,200,000 people that are out there (who knows maybe one of my neighbors is reading this with their yappy dogs and will think twice about letting them bark constantly)...... I guess it is just one of those days.

10 comments:

california smiths said...

I understand you better than you imagine! It is hard when you feel like this is where you should be but sometimes you just can't remember WHY you are supposed to be here. Hang in there, a good day will be right around the corner and when everyone at home is in 12" of snow and below freezing weather and we are at the beach, we will have a good day :) We'll just have to get together for the holidays!

cortney and neil said...

I'm so sorry. You can call me tomorrow and cry to me. I am a little offended though that you didn't mention how much you miss your best friend here in hick town :) Hang in there. I love you tons. Maybe if we can't be neighbors here again we will be next door neighbors in heaven. It will be the funnest block up there. Expecially with all my spouses. I am proud of you though. Your vent was not near as bad as someone else we know. Wink Wink

Cyndie said...

I hear ya! I haven't spent Christmas with my folks for four years.

If it's any help, I've found that waiting for the lonely holiday is the worst part. The actual holiday always seems to work out well.

Mel said...

your post makes me cry, I am sorry you are feeling down. i am a little emotional today too... my little baby is getting shots to day, and I am such a pansy! I hope you start feeling better, if you need to cuddle with a little baby just let me know, I can bring him right over!

Isaac & Kelsie said...

You have no idea how many days I had just like this. Except I had no kids to look at me like I was crazy while I was crying and home sick. I feel your pain....being away from family is super hard--but it does get easier. I promise. Hang in there!!

le said...

I was feeling bad about the holidays on Sunday. All of you are going to be Texas, while I'm here with a newborn, that wants to eat and poop all day, and if it was like last time, I won't be able to sit yet. No one wants to come party with me, because I guess a newborn isn't much of a party. Plus I'm worried all miss the fun of thanksgiving too, by going into labor early. Then I'll never get my Christmas decorations up. Hopefully I feel good enough by christmas eve, to go see family in either PG or Lindon.

Marcella said...

Hey you. My California beach babe friend! See, I couldn't say all that unless you were in California. I'm so proud of you for being out there. You have become so independent, strong, and added a little California spunk. I love you so much! You are an inspiration to me, and I'm jealous that you don't have to have a winter. Live it up. Eat a Sprinkles cupcake, you'll automatically feel better!

The Christensens said...

Oh teresa I love you, I am sorry you feel that way, but if it makes you feel anybette sometimes I feel that way and all my family lives in Utah, I have those days when I feel like I have no one to talk to....So if ya ever need anything even just to talk you can call me most likely I am in need of some one to talk to as well!! Love ya

The Reese's said...

totally feel for you, except for not living by family. it's nice to vent for while. hope you are feeling better.

Brooke said...

I am sorry I am so absent right now! I promise I won't be unavailable forever. You guys will have to come over soon. You listened to me vent! Now it is my turn!